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Post by hollywood emily addison on Feb 4, 2009 0:36:55 GMT -5
so live journal isnt working right now, so ill post here instead.
for days, ive been putting off doing my first post. didnt want to say. didnt even know how to do this. then something happend....i think this will work.
just when i thought things couldnt get any worse....BAM! he drops the bomb! hes not only bi...but cheated on me...with a guy, and he never loved me. so then why am i still with him? i love him!! why? omfg i wish i knew. he said i should be ferious! what he doesnt know wont hurt him right? thank god a computer screen is between us, otherwise...hed know. he would know the truth! i told him it wasnt his fualt....that id been doing it since we began dating. i lied. he caused it. i just couldnt tell him that. he already felt too awful. yeah i did it again, she doesnt have to know. he doesnt have to knwo its because of him. and no one will know. except for the one person who would never hurt me. ill tell her tomorrow. she would understand. i know she will. she wont judge me. she cant. i tried so hard....i just cant handle this anymore.
goodnight.
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