Post by hollywood emily addison on Nov 2, 2008 17:53:28 GMT -5
i rememember when i had a bad day or i was just upset, id come on here and just roleplaying made me feel better. when i lost all my real friends but it didnt really matter all that much to me bc i had my 'internet' friends. and you guys were always there for me when i needed you, you always made me feel better and kept me strong when my whole world was falling apart. but now, at the begining of a new school year, its almost like we dont even know eachother anymore. i know that over the summer we have all changed in some way, weather it be for the better or worse. i know that for me, it was for the better. i may not come on here as much as i used to, or most of the time at all, but i do promise i have changed for the better, what i went through last school year has changed me. it made me stronger, with your help of course, and this is how i repay you? but not even coming on every once in a while to say 'hey' to the people that are supose to be my best frineds? instead....im hanging out with kids at school, im going to dances and im having fun and laughing with people i know that will be there everyday and i know i wont forget about. ive become the type of person ive always wanted to be, not a bitch for forgetting all of you, but a girl who has friends and is happy to go to school and be with them. i feel bad that the last time i talked to ashley on the phone, i blew her off for someone else, i feel bad that the last time mallory IMed me, i wasnt there, but i was with my new frinds instead, but what i feel bad about the most is that i feel as though i dont know any of you anymore, and you dont know me anymore.i feel bad that im finally the type of person i want to be, because i feel like im hurting all of you who thought i was your friend. its liek that saying:
It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. It's sad how times change.
it really applys to this situation. we were all a huge part of eachothers lives, and now i cant even remember the last time ive talked to any of you. i hate how so many things have happend for me and none of you know because im so wrapped up in my real high school life. i hate how it almost seems like no one can even talk to me anymore without me bringing up my new frineds or something that happend at school. i hate how i dont have what i had last year, it may have been my worst year, but it was deffintlay my favorite out of all of them. but mostly, i hate how im drifting away form all of my old frineds eventhough i know w\how it feels and i promised all of you i would never do it. i guess im just a hypcrit right? i said band was for losers, and look at me now...its all i think about. i said i would never EVER read twilight, and now....i cant even put it down, and i cant wait for the movie. what next? what will happen? what else will i do that i said i never would. i guess out of all this ranting, what im really trying to say is that i miss the feeling of having nothing. i know it sounds weird, but when you go form having nothing to having everything practily overnight, youll see what i mean. and the reason why i decided to post this, is because....i just want everyone to know that i havnt forgotten about them. i still care about all of you, and i wish the best for you. and remember the prmose that all of us made, no matter where life brings us, we will be there for eachother, waiting. i still think about the old times, were everyone would be on and we would have long discusstions about nothing at all. i remember all the times ive 'quit' but a week later i was back on. and i remember every little detail about last year had something to do with you guys, and you have made me who i am now. so....thanks. everyone here has played a small part in making me the person i am now, and i dont think anyone you talk to that knows the new me will atess that you did a bad job. so again, thank you. and maybe one day, when we are 25, we are walking down the street we will bump into eachother and talk about memories from our childhood that no one would understand but us.
love all of you.
-heather♥
It's sad when people you know become people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even look at them. It's sad how times change.
it really applys to this situation. we were all a huge part of eachothers lives, and now i cant even remember the last time ive talked to any of you. i hate how so many things have happend for me and none of you know because im so wrapped up in my real high school life. i hate how it almost seems like no one can even talk to me anymore without me bringing up my new frineds or something that happend at school. i hate how i dont have what i had last year, it may have been my worst year, but it was deffintlay my favorite out of all of them. but mostly, i hate how im drifting away form all of my old frineds eventhough i know w\how it feels and i promised all of you i would never do it. i guess im just a hypcrit right? i said band was for losers, and look at me now...its all i think about. i said i would never EVER read twilight, and now....i cant even put it down, and i cant wait for the movie. what next? what will happen? what else will i do that i said i never would. i guess out of all this ranting, what im really trying to say is that i miss the feeling of having nothing. i know it sounds weird, but when you go form having nothing to having everything practily overnight, youll see what i mean. and the reason why i decided to post this, is because....i just want everyone to know that i havnt forgotten about them. i still care about all of you, and i wish the best for you. and remember the prmose that all of us made, no matter where life brings us, we will be there for eachother, waiting. i still think about the old times, were everyone would be on and we would have long discusstions about nothing at all. i remember all the times ive 'quit' but a week later i was back on. and i remember every little detail about last year had something to do with you guys, and you have made me who i am now. so....thanks. everyone here has played a small part in making me the person i am now, and i dont think anyone you talk to that knows the new me will atess that you did a bad job. so again, thank you. and maybe one day, when we are 25, we are walking down the street we will bump into eachother and talk about memories from our childhood that no one would understand but us.
love all of you.
-heather♥
